PART 4—THE GIRL WITH HER ARM IN A SLING WAITING FOR THE BUS
The down side of waiting for the bus in this unheated shelter is that I’m not moving much and it’s hard to keep warm. The nice Dr. Forester wanted to call Campus Security to help me with my lock-out problem, but I convinced him that I was expected at a friend’s apartment shortly for dinner and I would make the call there. I sort of implied that I didn’t have far to go if I walked from Student Health, so I was glad that the bus stop was out of sight from the doorway. He was so sincere, I didn’t want him to know that I’d told him lie upon lie. But then I saw the doctor leaving the parking lot with a woman in a car, and I know that he saw me too.
Calling campus security is simply not an option. The arm that is newly bandaged is colder than the other one for some reason, so I hug it closer to me with my good arm. My sweatshirt is brittle with the dried blood. If I called campus security they would ask to see my student ID before they’d even consider letting me into the room. And I don’t have one. I’m not a student here, I’ve never been a student here, and I’ve never even been to college. I’m just somebody’s well-kept-but-not-that-well-kept secret. I am—I was—Opal Solomon’s secret.
I came to New Haven two years ago with my boyfriend—we were both eighteen. We came here right after the end of high school so he could get a job and in-state status and apply to Uconn. I was going to then apply to Yale—I had the grades—and every grant, loan, and scholarship I could get my hands on. A year later, I finally had to admit that that plan was just as lame as it had sounded to everyone else back home. My boyfriend didn’t want me around anymore, and I found it wasn’t too hard to spend most of my time on the Yale campus, even though I didn’t belong there. Technically, I wasn’t homeless—I could still go back to the apartment if I wanted to put up with the abuse—but I found the porches, porticos and covered walkways of campus were a lot more welcoming. Throughout that summer—one year since I’d graduated high school—I got comfortable with taking handouts and leftovers from the kids leaving the dining halls. It was warm enough to sleep outside, and if I waited until it was completely dark to settle in for the night, the shadows in the doorways of campus buildings kept me safe from the real homeless people. And that was all fine, until the fall came and the campus got more crowded with both students and night-patrolling security. I found my safest little niche in the shrubbery by the Drama Building. That’s where Opal found me.
She was different to say the least. By then most people would avoid me. But she made me her cause. She convinced her roommates to let me crash in their dorm room for longer and longer periods of time as the weather got colder. I wasn’t SO bad, after all. I think they really liked having me there. I think I represented a kind of freedom that they had lost. They represented a dream I’d never attain.
Opal was a history major, and she loved to tell me about what she was studying. She knew when I met her that she was going to be transferring to Brown at the middle of the year because they had a better program for her. She was passionate about Roman Britain and the Picts. “Have you ever heard of Hadrian’s Wall?” she asked me one evening. We were both reading from her textbooks.
I knew from high school European history that Hadrian was a Roman emperor, and I knew from perusing the pictures in Opal’s history text that there has an ancient wall in Scotland that had been built to keep the Picts out of Roman England, so it wasn’t hard to guess that the Romans had built the wall in the name of their emperor Hadrian.
“Can you imagine,” Opal said, “What it would have been like to live near Hadrian’s Wall in the years just after it was built?” She was practically whispering, with all the drama of a ghost story told over a camp fire. “The Picts probably thought it was the coolest thing they’d ever seen. If I was a Pict, it would have MADE me want to invade England.” Opal would have made a great history teacher. “But the Roman’s on the other side, on the south side? They must have been scared to death of what was on the other side of the wall. It was the great, horrible unknown, full of terrifying people they’d heard about that were covered head to toe with blue tattoos, people they thought of as ferocious animals that they would never even try to understand. It was probably worse than having no wall at all—constantly comtemplating the horror of What If--Picts breaching the wall, heads on pikes, setting fire to their homes, carrying off their women to do god-knows-what to them.”
“I don’t know about that, Opal,” I said. But I had to confess that she made the thought of it come so alive for me, I actually shivered.
And now I’m shivering again in the real cold. Opal left for home at the end of term last week, and she’s not coming back before she transfers to Brown. We said our tearful goodbyes in the common area of the rooms she shared with roommates, the room where I had so often slept on the couch, where I had waited for a turn in the shower just like I was one of them. The night before she left, Opal gave me a bunch of her clothes. But the roommates were not so touched by our goodbyes that they invited me to stay. In fact they made it quite clear that after Opal left, there would be no place for me among them.
So that was last week. I know they’ve all left for the break now—the room has been dark for two nights. It has been fucking cold in the Drama School shrubbery and it hurts too fucking much to go back to my ex-boyfriend’s apartment and have unspeakable things done and said to me. But the combination of the two, hurting in the cold, is intolerable. That’s how I decided to use the dorm room over the break when know one was home. All I needed was to break in once, and then I’d always be able to get in somehow. I shouldn’t have gone to the infirmary—now I’ve completely lost my nerve to do what I’d planned. I guess I hoped, subconsciously, that when I went to have my arm looked at, they’d see things when I took off my sweatshirt that alarmed them enough to let me stay. But the cuts and bruises were masked by the accident I’d just had with the window. They thought I got them in the fall. I didn’t tell them otherwise.
Now I can’t stop thinking about Hadrian’s Wall. I’m there, Opal! It’s just outside the bounds of the light coming from this bus shelter. Somewhere in this cold night, Opal, I can feel the blue men breaching the Wall, armed with pikes. Do you think they’ll be terrifying? Do you think they’ll carry me away?
More fan art and I don't know who to thank or credit, just FanPop where I picked this up. 'American Psycho' is the best film Christian Bale has made, in my humble opinion. This graphic is based on a photograph I've seen, but this interpretation is somehow much more seductive.
This week we are going to see the cast in some amazing fan art. I will credit it whenever possible. Alas, I do not know what artist to thank for this beautiful Snape/Rickman fantasy. I had googled 'sonya walger alan rickman' at the time I came across it.
Radiohead, part 2.
This is for Thursday.
Absolutely no idea where this could be. There's a guy in papal head gear in the rear and a building labelled 'Switzerland' in English. Not Disneyland, maybe EuroDisney. No matter, because Jason Isaacs looks quite comfortable in his jeans and hoodie. The dry leaves and Jason's long sleeves imply autumn and an overcast sky. Put your arm around me, keep me warm, take me for coffee, then let me go home for a nap.
The cast of 'Harry Potter' mourns the loss of 'Lost.' Nah, not really. Daniel Radcliffe and Emma Watson in HP4.
Dedicated to Ian and Dominic in appreciation for their years of brilliant work on 'Lost.'
This post is for Saturday. I'll be in Orange County, so I'm posting early.
Eddie Argos has always had an unusual sense of style and prefers to dress up rather than dress down. So it's not difficult to find a picture of him in a suit and tie. But this photo of Art Brut has always been special to me--I call it the Eddie Argos String Quintet.
This is for Thursday.
Real life is such a pain in the ass. The plumbers from yesterday found more trouble, want to dig a second big hole in my yard, and more than doubled the estimate [like to $9000]. My first thought was that one of the kids won't go to college. I said that out loud. I felt like Sophie choosing, not which child would live or die, but.....OK, that's catastrophizing and I'm not allowed to do that. I've had a lot of expensive therapy to teach me that I'm not supposed to do that. So it felt like a Hobson's choice--I can pay the plumber now or I can pay him even more later [and now]. Heh.
This post is for Tuesday. [You'll have to excuse me for posting early--RotoRooter is coming to my house at 8 in the morning to anihilate my front yard and take $3700 from me for their trouble. I don't expect to salvage much good from the day.]
This post was just too easy. Christian Bale as Bruce Wayne aka Batman. Thousand dollar suits. The image of Armani poise sits in sharp contrast to the Bruce Wayne of 'Dark Knight Returns,' tearful and slumped in his living room, unable to have saved the woman he loved. "She loved me, Alfred. She told me." Alfred holds the letter which holds the truth in his hands.
This picture is pretty small, which is a shame, but it does get a point across. Even at this distance, the cut of Alan Rickman's suit is clearly shown to be impeccable. I saw this production of 'Private Lives' on Broadway with my own star-filled eyes, and there was a point at which Rickman stands on that balcony with his back to the audience for quite a time. From the shoulders down to the waist, from the hips, somewhat narrower that the shoulders, up to the waist, his frame was two perfectly interesecting triangles. You can see it here. Good Tailoring = Sex on 2 Legs. The designer who costumed the show said something along the lines of "You could put Alan Rickman in a plastic trash bag, and if it was tailored properly, he'd look spectacular." Amen. All hail Saville Row.
Henry Ian Cusick from the back, Christian Bale from the front. In the shower. I am shameless.
I don't have a picture of Eddie Argos all wet except for pictures of Eddie all sweaty--I sort of thought that would be cheating. I googled 'Eddie Argos wet' and 'Eddie Argos swim' to no avail, and as far as I know, there is no website for Wet Rock Stars. However, I do have this picture of Eddie and Jasper Future doing the Swim.
It's Thursday, therefore this must be Ian Cusick. You were expecting Desmond with the speargun in the Looking Glass station, or Desmond in the shower in the Hatch. Or perhaps Ian himself all sweaty after a run...oh, stop me.. But nothing compares [cue Sinead O'Connor], really, to his portrayal of Jesus in 'The Gospel of John.' This lovely sight is courtesy of the work of John the Baptist, and I think, of mumsypower for the screen cap.
I don't know what this clip is from, but isn't Jason Isaacs lovely in the shower? Good morning...
Daniel Radcliffe. I don't know the occasion. I was going to use a photograph from 'HP and the Goblet of Fire' where he's sitting all shivery after saving Fleur de la Coeur's sister and Hermione is wrapping a towel around him. But then I came across this website called [I think] Wet Men. Very little of it is risque, and what is is clearly labelled before you get to the actual pictures.
Christian Bale in 'Laurel Canyon.' That movie is a spot-on depiction of the degree to which family can complicate your life. Every time Christian's character emerges from that pool, it's like he's hoping he has been reborn to some other parent.
This week the cast are going to have to get a bit damp. The theme is Wet Brits. 
I'm going completely off the grid today. That's what 'Editor's Choice' means. Heck, that's what "It's my blog" means, I can do what ever I want.
I actually do have pictures of Eddie Argos in 19th c. dress. His band Art Brut did a photo shoot around the time of their first album that was a homage to grand-Guignol-melodrama-murder stories. But I chose this Casablanca-style photo instead. It was destined to be photoshopped [beautifully] into the cover of Everybody Was in the French Resistance...Now's first album, "Fixin' the Charts, vol. 1." Plus, the dress and the suit are exquisite.
OK, OMG, LOL...IMO every one of these pictures is great, so I'll just have to post them all. They are from "Darwin's Darkest Hour", a rare dramatic piece written and produced by the National Geographic Society ["look at that big tree, it must be very old...."] and presented last fall on PBS' program 'Nova.' Henry Ian Cusick and Frances O'Connor are depicted above as Mr. and Mrs. Darwin. 
He may have been the ultra-badguy in 'The Patriot', but I think Jason Isaacs looks pretty good circa 1776.
What period IS Hogwarts? Timeless, evidently. Edwardian, maybe? Neo-Gothic by default.
The nineteenth century is less romantic when the characters in question have no wealth. Here's Christian Bale in character for '3:10 to Yuma' in a heartbreaking scene with his son. The tension in this relationship is the catalyst for a lot of what happens next.
This week, let's see our enticing male cast in period dress, nineteenth century preferably, but as in all things pleasant, I remain flexible.
Click on it and make it large enough to read--the ultimate happy cast, eh? I gotta run--I'm picking up my new VW today. Love is in the air.
